Hmmm Life

So, this is my first entry to my first blog.....EVER. I used to write in a journal when I was a teenager, and I loved it. Then came marraige and motherhood and there was no longer anymore time for that. Now 16 years later, thanks to my dear, sweet friend, Kathy, I have discovered the new age journaling.

A little background about myself first though. I am 35, mother of 2 wonderfully, awesome children. Alyssa is 16 and Rylen is 8. I have been blessed with 2 beautiful and wonderfu children. (sometimes I wonder if the nurses switched them at birth lol.) We live in Montana, a beautiful place that we are very lucky to be in. The people here are wonderful and friendly and the scenery is absolutely breathtaking, to say the least. While life here is not always perfect, we have it pretty well. I have found that even though I don't have any family here, that when the going gets tough, those closest to you pull together and make good things happen, VERY QUICKLY, as though they were your family. I am currently going through a divorce and now a single parent, working full time, as well as "just trying to get through all of this". Even when I think I was at my lowest of lows last week, I felt like I had noone to turn to and noone to confide in, because I am all alone with the kids now, but I quickly found out how good of friends I have and how things weren't as bad as I thought they were.

Today is a good day, I am recooperating from a sprained ankle from last weekend, and adjusting to seeing my soon to be ex around town and realizing it really is over between us. As hard as it is, it seems to get a little easier each day. I am hoping we can continue to be civil and possibly stay friends, if for nothing else, than to be able to co parent.

Alot of changes happen when you go from being a "couple" to being single. There is noone else to take out the trash, noone else to blame leaving dirty socks on the floor, or putting the almost empty milk carton back into the refrigerator. On the flip side, there is also noone to tell you that you have to put the dishes in the dishwasher right after dinner, noone to give you a dirty look if you decide to stay up until 4am sewing a quilt. I am adjusting, it just gets lonely sometimes. I am also finding lots of time to "find myself" again. I lost her somewhere, possibly still back in Kansas, but I am slowly finding her and making changes to her as needed.

Well, I think I have rambled on for enough tonight. I have to go get packing and get ready for our move next week. (The kids and I are moving into a house in town next week WOOHOO)